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I recently was inspired to write my musical autobiography, and thought it was great to see a blog post about this very topic after I had already begun on Innovative Ideas in Performance and Pedagogy.
I originally started to write it because I realized that the story of music in my life really was the underpinning of my whole life itself. Meaning, I’m a musician who likes science and trained as a physical therapist, not the other way around.
I highly recommend writing this for yourself. It really helped me to see how studying music helped me through transitions and low points in my life, and it helped me to see that life got so much better during the times when I really valued myself as a musician.
I found myself at one point addressing all musicians going through a hard time physically or emotionally:
I totally and completely respect all that music means and is to you. I understand. I know that others, maybe your healthcare practitioners, may think this is a hobby or a side venture or something that you can replace. I absolutely get it that this IS you. And I also know that recovery can be a difficult process. It can sometimes be convoluted, with ups and downs and false starts and a lot of inner discovery. It can be painful to let go of old habits that served you in the past, but no longer serve you well. But I am here to tell you, whether or not we work together, that you ARE a musician. Whether or not you are injured, whether or not you are a professional, wherever you are in your learning process or healing process, it is something you are that can never be changed. It chose you. So know this – that you are not a machine that plays one instrument. You are a beautiful multifaceted musician in your inner landscape.
I hope this is as healing to read as it was to write.
Best,
Diana






What you’ve expressed here is pure gold. As a saxophonist who had struggled mightily in the past with pain and functionality issues (I no longer am, thankfully), I, too, had to keep reminding myself that (as you’ve written) music chose me, that it is my essential calling. I could no more change that about myself than I could change my ethnicity, gender or sexual orientation. It is who I am. Keeping this in mind gives meaning to the struggle. Thanks for a beautifully written reminder.
Thank you for your response! I’m glad you are past that part of your journey, but I’m so glad those thoughts helped you too.